The Secret

Life is hard. And sometimes it feels like nothing goes right. Like a downward spiral, and there is no way to reverse it. But there is. The way we handle life's ups and downs is up to us. A very good friend of mine recently got me this book called The Secret. I hadn't heard of it, but it is very popular. It is about learning how to control our thoughts so that we think positive thoughts all the time. Because if you think positively you will attract more positive thoughts and your life will become more positive, and exactly what you want. It is actually very interesting and insightful. In this book it talks about making goals for yourself and to help keep those thoughts of what you want with you, it talks about a vision board/book. I have heard about these, and I started making one a couple years back, but obviously never followed through. Today is different. I went and got my vision book and made the very first page! I am starting today with setting my goals and making sure that I achieve them! 

This is my dream/vision book! :) I loved this quote when I saw it and thought that it is perfect for the purpose of this book! 

 My very first page of the book! It says what is it used for and the day that I started it! :)

Also, the same friend that gave me the book, gave me advice about myself. I am the kind of person who will always put everyone and everything before myself. Which is good at times, but then who takes care of me? So her advice was to start doing things for myself, and that is exactly what I did today! I went to the store and got my dream book, but also got a new sketch book and pencils! I have always loved to draw and sketch things, but I haven't in a while, and I have never had real charcoal pencils to sketch with!

 My beautiful new sketch book! :)

My first drawing in my new book! :)

Today was the first day in a while that I was truly happy! I am starting to slowly change, and become a better person! :D Life is good!

Expression

Well like I have already stated, I have always loved to write.. whether it be poems or lyrics...anything to help me express things that I can't seem to say, but can write. Hence why I started this blog.. I have way to many thoughts going through my head and I need a place to let them out. I am always nervous about writing and then showing people because I am afraid of what they might think.. but I am getting over my insecurities and I am going to share something that I have written and see what the insight and thoughts are of others. If there are any :) 


The Perfect Fairytale Night
just a chill in the air
beautiful sunset and sandy beach 
and not a single care.


Being here with you
holding your hand
looking into your eyes
and floating off land.


Never feeling this way before
my insides like a little girls
the feelings of safety and love
are sending my mind in a whirl.


Wrapped in your arms
eyes are closed tight
not wanting to open and see
it was all a dream in the night.


Open my eyes to find out
still wrapped in your arms tight
just a chill in the air
My Perfect Fairytale Night.


I know that this is nothing spectacular or anything, but the memory behind this is what makes it one of my very favorites!  I usually only write about the happy, lovey dovey kind of things because when I write about sad topics it makes me depressed and angry, so I have tried to focus on the more happy thoughts! :) 


I started to get the writing bug when a good friend of mine was writing music of his own. He is such a talented and amazing person who is too humble to admit his incredible abilities, but that's what I am here for! We started talking about music a lot and about his songs that he has written and I decided that I was going to try to start writing more. And there you go.. I don't do it as often as I would like, but when I do it helps me so much. Helps me put all of my fears, doubts and insecurities into something that I can see and become aware of, and then hopefully change. 


"For me, writing is an exploration; and most of the time, I'm surprised where the journey takes me."
Jack Dann

First time for everything!

I finally decided to give in to the new craze of blogging! At first, I didn't do it because everyone else was.. and because secretly I knew I would enjoy it. I have always enjoyed writing, mostly poems or lyrics.. never really anything that remotely resembles an essay.. but I have been going through a lot in the past year or so and writing has always helped me express how I feel or what I am thinking and so now here I am.. blogging. I'm not really sure what all to write about, or how to go about putting all of my thoughts together to make it so others could read and understand what in the world I am talking about.. But I am sure going to try. And besides, this really isn't meant for anyone in particular to read. Just a way to express and remember things in my life. And if someone does like what I am writing than it is just a plus.. A MAJOR plus, because I can't imagine anyone ever actually understanding my thought process :) 


A very good and dear friend of mine just started a blog not too long ago, and for her first post she decided to write a little bit about herself.. and I think I might steal that idea. Hopefully she doesn't mind.. Love ya Molls! :) 


I love to dance. I started dancing when I was 3 years old, and have loved it ever since. Whether watching or actually dancing myself, there is just something so freeing (is that a word) and energizing about it. I love sports! My family and myself are HUGE Steelers fans.. and I mean HUGE! If you are for another team, we can be friends as long as we never talk about football :) But I really do love sports, I used to play basketball and it was great! I played when I was little, in my backyard with the neighbor boys, and then when I was in 8th grade I decided to try out for the basketball team and somehow made it! It was a great experience and I made some amazing friends. I also enjoy just hanging out and not doing anything at all. With my busy schedule as of late, this is something that I cherish, relaxing.


There will definitely be more to come, but I think that is all for now :)