I haven't blogged in FOREVER... it's horrible.. and what's even worse, is that I have no good excuses. I didn't blog for so long because every time I went to start a post I froze and couldn't think of anything that I wanted to write, or anything that I thought was good enough to write.. But I decided that it doesn't matter what I write.. this really isn't for anyone else but me.. Yes people read this, but I don't write it for everyone. I write for me. To help me think through whatever it is that I have to think through.. or simply to put it out into the universe and hope that someone is listening (or reading) to this and things will fall into place as they are supposed to.. So here is a post about me. About what I want to do, where I want to go, and my life :)
I have finally got my mind set on the career that I want to at least start out with in life. It took me a while to come to a conclusion on one career that I wouldn't get bored at.. but I found it. I am going to school now to earn a Bachelors degree in Exercise Science, and then I might even move on to Graduate school to get my Masters in Physical Therapy. There is so much to learn in this field, that I will never get bored. I can always be learning something new. The body is absolutely amazing and mind blowing. Everyday that I am in Human Anatomy I am shocked at how incredible our bodies are, and the things that they are capable of. It is unreal.
Even though I finally know what I want to do for a career, I have NO idea what I want to do in life. I don't know where I want to end up, or what I want to do in the process. I know I want to travel every chance that I get. I want to see as much of the world and be exposed to the many different cultures there are. I want to do new things, and explore.
I want to be able to find someone who will love, respect and cherish me. I want to have a family of my own one day, and raise them to not be afraid of change and have a desire to explore.
I want to be the best that I can be. I have been trying to work on this one a lot this summer. I am trying to figure out exactly what I want, believe, and need. I still have a lot to find out, but I have discovered a lot as well. I want to keep figuring out more about myself and become the type of person that I would want to be friends with or in a relationship with.
I know, a lot of this is kind of cheesy... but it's all truth. I have so many things running through my brain all the time.. so many places I want to go, and things that I want to try and do.. hopefully I will be able to find someone to do these things with me.
I have been involved in "relationships" per say that were completely and utterly wrong for me.. Actually almost all of them were.. and I don't write this so that people will feel bad for me at all. I write this for information. I am horrible at finding a good companion. I never look for the long term qualities that I know that I want in someone.. I look for the here and now aspects of the person. Which isn't horrible for right now I guess because I don't want to get married right now.. but it doesn't get me any closer to a goal. It almost sets me back more and more every time.. So I am starting a new goal. From now on, I am going to try to look passed the here and now, and what I want in the moment, and look more towards a long term goal when I look at who is attractive and worth my time, because I deserve someone who wants to be there down there road. I do. Everyone does. You just have to believe it.
Life is so unpredictable.. and it's up to you how your life turns out! :D
Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself!!!